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This is what I’ve reasently found out. I don’t work the way I thought I did. I’m one of those people that are very controlled by the way I feel that I look. If I feel that I look good, that day is most likely to be a very productive and positive day. If I, on the other hand, feel that I have a bad hair day or have gotten a spot, or feel fat, or just not pretty, that day will most likely turn into a catastrophy. I won’t get anything done and I don’t want to be around people. I become a loner without normal social skills. I absolutetly wouldn’t go as far as apathic but you get the concept.

Yesterday was one of those bad days. I felt ugly, fat, and just ot good enough, but I did stuff anyway. Imagine that, and that’s why I’m writing about it know. Something in me has changed and it’s definately for the better. Maybe it’s because I’m in love (jep, I think I am) or because I’ve grown up a lot lately. I don’t know, but the point is that I went to school, trying to ignore my feelings, and got through it. I also went to the gym followed by going to my guy’s house. A normal day it might seem, but to me, it’s a huge victory. This would never have been possible just a short period of time ago but now, it’s been done!

Today’s a much better day and everthing is back to normal. I just though I would share this feeling with you and show that how you feel about certain stuff shant ruine your life. or worse, hold you back!

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